Last update.

Last entry sucked and I'm sorry.

This one will suck too but I won't be updating for a week or two because I have lot going on. Write soon :)

Byee x

Teenage Pregnancy.

On Wednesday night by parent were channel flicking (There was nothing decent on), and on BBC 3 there was a t.v show about teen pregnancy. Not about how the baby was made or the relationships between the parents as expected (I mean, we all know the 'facts of life') but the pregnant teens education during and after the pregnancy. It was like a school for the pregnant, a day care was included for the babies. I'm sure I'm just being paranoid now, but I swear my parents put programs on like this just to 'inform' me.  They say they don't but I know they do. Sometimes they don't think I'm as smart as I actually am.. I understand contraception, sex and the effect of having a baby - present and future. It just makes me awkward and the general room as well (y'know.. like the atmosphere), I really don't feel comfortable talking about stuff like that with my parents.

That's my update. Bye :) x

I have an eating disorder. :/

Read on to find out more about my apparent illness. To inform you, this has been said many times before.

The bizarre British weather at the moment is due to Arctic Weather coming over this way (I think, I don't pay much attention to the weather on T.V). Of course, this meant snow again for the fourth day in a row this week and second time in 2009. I don't want to seem like I'm moaning, I love snow as much as everyone else, but it prevents me meeting my cousins because the roads are icy and therefore dangerous. The only way for me to reach my cousins house is via driving, as I would die of hypothermia walking in the cold for fifty minutes. OKAY, that's an over exaggeration but same thing. Instead, I had to stay at home.. with my mother and younger sister. I didn't have much of a problem with my mother, just the sister. She enjoys bugging me and getting me into much trouble as possible. One example: she bit my arm so I pushed her off causing my mother to yell at me because she is "only seven years and doesn't know any better". Oh, I know that's not true. She's not stupid people!

Another issue with teenagers today is that of eating disorders. You know what I mean.. girls thinking they are fat because of models or whatever. Yet again, last night it was implied I am a sufferer. I made my mother and step-father a cup-of-tea and after giving it to them, I was about to walk out the rooom when I had a dizzy spell in which I didn't move and my vision became blurry. This is the conversation:

Woah, I had a dizzy moment then. *laughs*

Did you eat lunch today?

Yes, like I do.. everyday.

What about breakfast dinner and breakfast?

You look very skinny.

Of course I look skinny! My body type is ectomorph meaning my natural body build is tall, petite and narrow hips (also a predominant clavicle), not forgetting to mention I have less than five percent body fit. HOWEVER! For my height (5 ft 6) I am an ideal weight which is like 6 1/2 and 7 stone area. I eat healthily and I exercise daily, so I feel there is no cause for concern. For breakfast I have bread or toast. Lunch I have a sandwich (ideally cheese or ham) and for dinner something like spaghetti Bolognese. Bearing in mind I also exercise between fifteen - sixty minutes a day.

Saw my father yesterday, I felt annoyed with him if I'm honest. Only because he seemed to only speak to my mother about his work at the union.. basically employment tribunals as mom may be experiencing one soon. I mean, I want to be a lawyer but to talk about the same topic of law repeating the same points for like half-an-hour seems pointless. It also doesn't help then when he arrived I was having a mood, for no particular reasons. Before my mother came home I cleaned the kitchen.. out of choice. The floors, sides, sink, cutlery... EVERYTHING. Not once did she say thanks, but everyone came home and made a mess in the room.

It's my cousins seventh birthday on February 21st and I've been invited. I admit a children's party is not my scene, but she is my cousin and I will go. Although, my mother complained as expected. Also, my older cousin (the mother of the child who is having the party) is going to the boxing with her partner as he got tickets to the boxing on February 28th in the NIA, and she asked me to babysit. I'm happy to but my mom is moaning about picking me up after as she does not allow me to take the bus, it's a ten minute drive fifteen max. She doesn't trust me getting the bus at night, and I could understand that but she also moaned about me taking it at like 2pm to get to my cousins early. She doesn't trust me at all!

Also, I need a job. Bearing in mind I'm fifteen, are there any jobs someone my age should be applying for in particular?

A quick catch-up.

I've decided to write a blog about my life, like everybody else on this website! I'd like to tell you I'll update daily, but I'm in serious doubt about doing that, I guess I can be unreliable like that. I deleted my old blog as it was not what I was going for. It was just "mumbo-jumbo" in my opinion. However, this will be about my life and how I'm coping with my new life. This first entry will just be a catch-up of what's happened lately so you don't get confused. Not that I'm sure anyone will read this, but hey! Who cares?

During 2004 (I think!) when I was 12 (again, I think!) my family moved to Devon. When I say family I mean my mother, brother, half-sister and step-father. Before this I had lived in Birmingham City all my life, but my family moved to Devon, I'm not sure why this move happened but I can only presume it's because of financial reasons. Devon is around three hours away from Birmingham, so after moving I didn't see my family much apart from once a month - maybe. My mother usually would say we were visiting but then change her mind last minute (my brother and I don't really believe the promises she makes. She okay apart from that though). The change of location happened during the start of the school summer holidays and as a result - they were very boring. However, when we did start school it wasn't the local high school but one that half an hour away and a middle school instead. I attended this school for about two weeks before moving to the local high school. This is because the secondary school had a better reputation and of course, eased the traveling distance.

     I attended this school until December 2008, and it was their I made some of my best friends, however, I fear I made some empty promises upon my leaving that I'm not sure I can keep them. It took alot for me to trust these people as in year 7 (when living in Birmingham) I was bullied and therefore very withdrawn and unconfident. Since moving to Devon, I changed and became the opposite! Life there was ideal a lot of the time.. I mean the sea was a five minute walk away! As already mentioned at the end of  2008, I moved house AGAIN. This new house was not in Devon where I could easily still see my friends.. but back to Birmingham, which made the move to Devon seem more like a three/four year holiday. I was devastated at the thought at having to re-build my life but got over soon. Here I am now.. living in the second capital city of  England.

Now living here, my life is pretty much uneventful as I do not currently attend school as non seem to have a place for me which is very worrying considering I have missed two GCSE exams and have more coming up in June. My mother is currently appealing to get me a place but the general thought is that I will become home-schooled or attend college. I don't have that many friends here anymore because I wasn't that friendly with many of my friends from my school in year because of the bullying. So, I spend a lot of time with my cousin, which is okay because we get on well.

My mother and father split up when I was five or six I guess, I can't really remember it. Nowadays, they get along fine - my dad used to stay at my house when we lived in Devon because he also got along with my step-father. Now we are back in Birmingham, I see him about 2-3 times a week at the most which is okay because we both have lives.

      My mother and step-father are married and have a daughter (my half-sister). I get along okay with my step-father sometimes, I find he is very moody often moaning and nagging over small things. Both he and my mother blow the small things way out of proportion - my mother especially. From a previous relationship my step-father has another son who he does not see. They did make contact for a couple of months but not for along, I think this was on purpose but I'm not sure. My father has not re-married but is engaged to my future step-mother. They have no children together but from previous relationships, she has two daughters and a son. I like these guys, there cool. We get along well, I'm closest to Jemma as she is nearest my age.

That is about it. Not complicated, not dramatic and not too tragic. Please subscribe and comment this entry.. I'd love to know about your lives!